Saturday, January 23, 2010

My Real Intent

I have to be honest: I've been avoiding this blog. I've barely looked at it since my last post. Maybe that's because I see the date of that post and realize it's about dang time I posted something new. But then I feel the gnawing at my stomach reminding me that I have no clue what to post next, or ever, for that matter.

This blog has become something I didn't intend for it to be: something that glorifies my mothering skills, gives the impression that I am full of wisdom, and that I am benevolent enough to share it with the masses. I feel so much pressure with each post to give you all something amazing, inspiring, enlightening (go ahead and throw in your own positive adjective), when really, I have no wisdom. And when I pretend that I do, I feel like a fraud. Let's face it, rarely do I have a completely original idea or suggestion. And why does the Mom who didn't start swearing until she had kids think she can give others advice? Yes, it's true. I admit it. Perhaps that was TMI, but I'm sure I just made you feel a lot better about yourself, didn't I?

Now, let me clarify. I am not writing this as a "poor me" post. Rather, I want you all to understand who I really am. I don't have all the answers. Every minute of every day at our house is not sunshine and flowers, and I hope I have not given the impression to the contrary. Sometime I feel really stupid that I even have a parenting blog.

So, why did I start this blog anyway? Frankly, I can't really remember my exact reasons, but I think I mostly wanted a blog where Mom's could share their good ideas, their wisdom, their ups and downs, etc. Notice that Mom is plural. I really did not intend for me to be the sole contributor on this blog (ahem...all you other contributors- you know who you are), but it looks like that's the way it's gonna be. So, since that's the case, you need to understand some things:
  1. Posts will be as frequent as my good ideas and thoughts come. Don't ask for more than that.
  2. I'm changing the name of my blog.

Let's talk about that last one. Just the title of my blog, "Teaching My Kids: How will they know unless we teach them so," intimidates me. It intimates that I actually know how to teach my kids. But the truth is, I'm just learning as I go.

That's what I want this blog to be about, which is why the new name is- "Learning As I Go." At least, that's part of the new name. I still want to incorporate the original title so that it goes along with my blog address. I'd love to change that too, but that would be a pain. I'm not quite sure how to work in the new title with the old one. Here are a couple ideas:

Learning As I Go On How to Teach My Kids: How will they...


Teaching My Kids and Learning as I Go: How will they...

Those are my two ideas. What do you like better? Or do you hate them both? Leave a comment and let me know.

I hope this post makes sense and that you understand me a little better. Sometimes I really do feel embarrassed posting things that make me look like a perfect mother. My neighbors on the other side of my walls know that's not true. But I'm working on it, and one day I will be a perfect mother. It will just take a lot of tries, a lot of ups and downs, and a whole lot of learning as I go.


Liana said...

Teaching My Kids and Learning as I Go: How will they...
is my vote.

And yes, you did make me feel a whole lot better by admitting your imperfect parenting skills.
Something else that made me feel better today was learning about 'the fall' in church today, and 'opposition in all things' and I've decided my kids need a grumpy mom some days to make them grateful for the happy mom on other days. I feel a whole lot less guilty when I remember that we're all just learning as we go.

Good post.


Marianne said...

Thanks Liana

Mardee Rae said...

ha ha, just last week at playgroup the discussion "i never swore befre i had kids" was had at length! This post did make me feel better and appreciate yhe log even more. sorry, typing with one hand while rocing a baby to sleep in thedark.

Kim said...

Marianne, you are way too hard on yourself! I know what you mean, though. I think that's why I don't post more often- I feel so unworthy. I'll try and do better! I like the second title best. And btw, you ARE a great mom!

Michelle said...

It just helps me to see that someone else is going through some of the same things that I am going through. I don't expect you to be perfect,it just makes me feel better to know I am not alone. I have also thought of starting a blog like this with multiple contributors, so I'm glad you did it first so I can read yours.